I NOW WELL KNOW
I now well know, my dear Jah frere
You’ve always been there
Always there
The trying times of my life
When I thought no one cared
That no one saw
And no one shared
Too shy, so shy was I
So skinny, so invisible
Who could love me?
And if so
I found hard to understand
I….in a skin too brown
And in a land so white
Felt that in my dark skin lurked
Only days on a downward arc
Saying to me at every turn
Turn back lest you be burned
Many a times I’d sought to hide
I didn’t know then
You’d heard every inner cry
That you saw, too
The perils, the snares
That I often just escaped by
Jah, you heard my cry
My God, my God!
Even at my impending birth
My young parents had in panic rushed
Into a wintry wee hour of night
Praying to see a rare city bus
Instead came a white man in his car
Crunching icy snow as he drove up
And gave them a welcomed ride
But trouble yet lay ahead
Because once in the surgery site
Their doctor gave my frantic dad
A bitter choice that night
Choose your baby or your wife
Of only one we can save life
My dad pleaded to just try
You, Jah, heard his cry
Despite mother’s tight pelvis
I was born wailing and safe
My mother relieved and sound
A happy family I’d found
Now, I know you were around
This ode could go on and on
Were all my life since then told
I am now getting old
Years past three score and ten
I remember and reflect
On the events of my life
And also now well know
All were beneficially God-sent
Whether small or big, way back when
Although I knew not Jehovah then
That took fifty plus stupid years
Before I decided to meet Him
When I did, it became only He
I came to love, adore and worship!
Somehow
He’d always counted me worthy
To become His friend
How could I ever make amends?
But here I am, so very grateful
That I get to sing to Him this ode
Before my life suspends
By Jahgirl
April 27, 2021